88% of my Cocaine Addiction Clients Had The Same Problem… They Still Recovered Though… #cocaine #2016 #stats and #facts

Yes 35 out of 40 were being held back with a longer recovery time, in some cases twice as long as would be expected.

Using a ‘hands on’ ‘new age’ approach to ex-addict led addiction treatment I was not surprised at this statistic nor was I surprised at the final outcome of my client satisfaction scores for 2015, from 42 clients polled on a 10 point questionnaire we scored a huge 96%.

Modern thinking on addiction leaving God, prayers, sponsors, day counting, trigger management, regression and self persecution has to be near its end surely.

Defect searching and handing oneself in as a failure is failing as rapidly as most rehab experiences. Pack it all away and take on an  a new approach.

The results are out and clear to see and in 2016 I’m going to prove these numbers again.

My approach is different to most but I am not alone in my methods. City boys, lost youngsters, bored housewives and baby boomers have all become ‘addicts’ in their words due to compounded trauma brought to bear by crap ‘Cocaine.’

I see it everyday in my work, when I’m getting right under the skin of my clients. (I talk to a lot of them everyday.) This is a factor in clients recovery success by the way… No question. It’s pretty obvious really, a once a week counselling chit chat or a weekly please save me meeting just doesn’t hit the heights of success I want to see for my clients. Be it a local lost soul I visit and work with daily or someone across the pond in a different timezone by video every other day the results and findings are all on a level.

This is what I found out in 2015:

  1. 90% of self confessed Cocaine ‘addicts’ by their own definition are carrying some form of unresolved trauma.

  2. 88%, 35 out of 40 clients worldwide are having their addiction trauma extended by adulterants causing them additional trauma and health issues preventing them from having a speedy recovery.

  3. 70% of all surveyed have tried and relapsed following traditional addiction treatments; NA, Counselling, Rehab and Abstinence based discipline.

  4. 85% of all clients surveyed found a hands on ex-addict approach helped them get over the finish line.

  5. 83% of clients found a structured daily action plan with well timed goals very useful in quitting.

  6. Average time spent in guided recovery… 13 weeks.

  7. The American War on Drugs  is a capitalist venture that is still ruining ill people’s lives.

  8. God isn’t going to save addicts from addiction. The addict is.

  9.  Life and behavior coaching are instrumental in the transitions from ‘binge’ and ‘abuse’ to ‘use’ to ‘abstinence.’

  10. All client’s offered the help guide Addiction Unplugged – How To Be Free by John Flaherty found it ‘useful’ or more impacting at early – mid stage post addiction. This document is essential reading where trauma needs to be addressed.

So, 9 out of 10 addicts have some underling trauma, yes you guessed it, mainly from childhood. This is not news. Doesn’t make sense to send these people to jail or demonise them does it? Nope, but we’re still doing it.

Truth is, none of these findings surprise me… Not even the headline; I saw this coming years ago. It’s what made me an addict, what kept me an addict and now makes me someone who helps others walk away from a Coke addiction. The more savvy substance counselor will know, older functioning users know and  the Police know but no ones connecting quality with delayed recovery. The speed, the sugar, the tranquilizer the other shit that is taking the weight… anything from 20-100% in your average street coke bag is doubling the recovery time on average now in the UK and it seems to be following close behind in the States.

With this knowledge substance abuse students can hopefully bear this in mind when helping ill addicts finds their way home. Just like I’m doing.

Want a speedy exit from powder addiction into recovery and THEN get ‘recovered?’ Then call me… I’ll charge you what you would normally pay for a few hours Friday night buzz and I’ll get under your skin till your back on track. I will armour you with everything you need to know about your addiction and work with you to pick up on the path that you left and I’ll have you in better shape. But you must, must want to stop. My methods are unorthodox but Orthodoxy is an old world for old times. Old approaches to addiction are so flaky and I disprove them daily.

You’ve  got to get back on track to rediscover yourself; armed with all the knowledge, guidance, fitness, mindfulness and some appreciation for life I get my clients to face their demons head on and deal with that trauma that holds them back. No counting the days clean, no avoiding people and places, no praying. Just doing and accomplishing, embracing life again we work together to fill the gaps that Cocaine no longer delivers on and hey lets face it even when it was good… It never lasted. Cocaine was a champagne celebration luxury that is now so hard to find that the gamble in scoring no longer stacks up. It now only serves as a tiny band aid for pan relief that doesn’t provide a fix. I said the police are aware of this issue, why on earth they get so excitable about putting away dealers of highly pure coke, they should be actively tracking down the people who cut up the product and who are the root causes of this new problem.

You want some real unorthodox advice? You really want out of the coke game for good? Save the money you normally spend on trauma inducing crap powder and after 3 months go to Peru or Bolivia, take in some sights, get inspired, make your last hit a real one then step on the plane and leave that shit where you found it. It will totally cleanse out all that legacy garbage powder in your system and enable you to gently slide out of the game and back into the life you’re supposed to be living.

Not Unorthodox… Call it New Orthodox… Want results? See the Coke Exit Guide in the strictest confidence. Now working with HR professionals as well as individuals.

pjk2011@gmail.com

+(44)7711 588033

Paul Kennedy

* Paul Kennedy is an ex-addict who founded the Addiction Survival Course in Coventry, West Midlands, UK. The Addiction Survival Course provides support and counselling for people who have a desire to quit Cocaine and whom do not wish to spend a lifetime ‘in recovery.’ Paul provides house call support, therapy sessions, volunteer services and a help line clinic in the UK and global phone consultations when he isn’t writing his help guide for addicts who wish to be set free from the grips of addiction…. 

www.addictionsurvivalcourse.co.uk

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

88% of my Cocaine Addiction Clients Had The Same Problem… They Still Recovered Though… #cocaine #2016 #stats and #facts

Family – Trauma, violence, abuse, denial… the makings of an addict… Concluded.

continuing from…

Listen to the rhythm, listen to the rhyme
Listen to the clock tick tock the hands of time
Ticking, tocking, constantly revolving
Listen to the problems of the world who need solving
Listen to the child crying in the crib
And listen to the sick act that the Daddy did
See Daddy turned his back on all of his responsabilities
Listen how Mummy copes to the best of her abilities
Listen to the cliche rapper that’s bragging
Listen to the mother who is always nagging
Her son to get up and do something with his life
Listen to the vows when ya marrying ya wife
Listen to the scream of a mother giving birth
Listen to the sorrows of our Mother Earth
Listen to the beggarman begging in the street
Please can you spare some change so I can get some food to eat
Listen to the plight of the homeless
And if you listen to the pessimists everything’s hopeless
Listen to your heart, listen to your soul
Listen to your conscience, let it take control
And just listen

Listen – Urban Species


I was an addict… I was traumatised… I’d been abused… I felt pain… No one would listen… It was ignored… suppressed…. I felt suffering… I was no longer an addict… finally someone listened.. The pain hadn’t gone… The suffering had…


Finally somebody listened, I felt better, not instantly… after a few hours i did for sure… and this morning I see or feel no fucking Albatross… The learning here is child’s play…

fixed

Yes there is room for good old fashioned gentle counseling. Well in my view.. where there is trauma; counselling / hypnotism / deep relaxation have their role to play. I got counsel from my Uncle and Auntie… I lost their son, my cousin along the way but he shut the door in my face, he had his reason, now my trauma has found an outlet then the semantics of the words ‘abuse denier’ seem harsh… Still his denial of me is/was a constant… maybe we’ll find a way. I ain’t so sure.

Was a difficult meeting, my subconscious was reaping havoc with me and I was very short tempered, I guess if I’d have suffered more denials then I would have gone skyward. It was a very big risk but one I had to take. Unfortunately I was also at the end with cigarettes as I transistioned to vaping for my nicotine fix… The speed burst poison additions in straight fags when denied to the brain and blood stream come off you like a Heroin mini opera… Totally twisting the head, again this morning I know I’m through the pain barrier with them. Big tobacco sure knew what they were doing with their design…. Yuk.

A favourite old Cocaine friend of mine always used to say to me ‘denial Paul, is not a river in Egypt…’ bless him , whenever I thought my pathological narcissism as a bag head was getting out of hand whilst high in the game, all I ever had to do was look at Dr Randolf and know I weren’t doing too bad on that level… aha ha ha ha ha … 🙂

If you come to me as a friend with tales of trauma / abuse / sadness whatever.. I got your back… I’ll go to war with you.. I’ll be your man, I don’t give a hell who the enemy is. #familyvalues… well, my family values anyway. This trauma had got too deep and I made a fatal error in judging others by my own standards or by what would be my own actions. Don’t set yourself up for failure, even in your darkest hours of trauma, this is so difficult to remember when your crying inside.

God knows the struggle to get heard was extremely traumatic bordering on break down levels / mild insanity coming to a head this week.

I lost a perfectly good cousin… But he closed the door  bust out of loyalty and that’s collateral… This had to out…

Out but not before I lost an Uncle… ‘No love lost’ as my serene and beautiful Gran used to say to us as kids when some fuckery had the misfortune to occur upon us. Lovely Gran also used to say ‘no sense, no feeling…’ both her maxims apply to this bully, this animal, this poor relation.

Beautiful Gran’s son… this self proclaimed head of the family a much maligned oxymoron moral compass, a man who’d lost his flow along time past… He came to my door with his Zenith of abuse to date, issued death threats… Proclaimed his happiness they my ‘cunt’ Father was dead… This all from a ‘man’ not fit to lace my Fathers shoe… Much more abuse was spouted from his coke and booze fueled cesspit mouth… Funny now, thinking back to his pathetic attempts to fight me… He was on his arse twice unsteady on his feet in a rage of trauma… Horrible fucker… for sure, it is the end for you and I, strangely enough in my last missive I put him and his lovely partner on a pedestal for saving me when I was younger… Shame you couldn’t stay constant you horrible bully. 

The trauma of the past hurts, the trauma of denial hurts, suppression hurts… all I needed was someone to listen to offer a holistic alternative to; prozac, heroin, booze, cocaine.. Pain relief. You actually listened, we got there. 

Yes, you are an old school couple, yes, you want to protect people, yes, you didn’t want to believe that abuse and bullying still existed after what we thought were gone days of darkness. You struggled with it, we wrangled… But because there were two females around the table with big hearts and without a history of pain and trauma as the two males had we were able to find a level. It was needed, I couldn’t go on in the knowledge that people thought ill of me when I was striving so hard to be a good man in all my actions and words.

You understood my decisions, you heard me out, I listened to your reason and we respected each other. This means I will not include you as collateral in my struggle, I will embrace you and move forward with you. You offered comfort and salvation to me as a child and now you do so again.

So… Collateral damage… I may have to lose a few more…. I’ve had to cut people as we are at this impasse, things may change but I am going to0 be very happy to carry on living my truth and helping others live theirs…. No living the truth as an ex-addict makes for failure in your quest for ‘recovered’ remember now, ‘in recovery’ is a life of suffering… Leave that to the God seekers… ‘Please all prey to end my addiction!’ etc what garbage.

Something had to be done, I could not suffer any more, I can feel pain and will bruise but the upside of being an ex-addict is that you have great insight into pain and suffering. Suffering will not stay long with me ever and I will always seek to remove it quickly. Yes I may have caused you pain however by closing the door, by choosing violence or ignorance YOU choose a double serving of suffering for yourself. I will forgive you all however.

My observations on suffering and trauma are now over for now. I feel released… anyday now, anyway how, you shall be released yourself dear reader… Address your fucking trauma head on… Yes you may go to the verge of insanity but then again there’s a good chance that you can set yourself free.. your mind, your addiction, your pain… your suffering can be burnt out… I suggested hypnotism by a trustee… I suggest an outlet – someone to listen but please make sure you think long and hard about who you choose if you choose family because I so nearly lost them all… Sister gone, Niece and Nephew gone, wretched bastard Uncle gone, a once kindred best mate cousin gone…. What have I gained though…

No more suffering….


 

from the anguish and pain, trial and tribulations and all the strains, my soul has suffered and now my soul con suffer no more, my soul will become happy, I can give and willingly give to those with sweetness and righteousness within, shall reside inside my precious soul, serenity, love and usefulness and obedience is the theme to my soul…

Space Spiritual – Nat Adderley Sextet


Never, ever did those words resonate so much as they do today. What a tune, look it up…

Shall be busy for a while now dear ex-addicts and addicts to be. The dinosaur age is over when it comes to addiction. There are ways out… Keep writing to me, ask of me anything, I got your backs… March on. pjk2011@gmail.com

Paul Kennedy

Please support and share my community work..

Paul Kennedy

* Paul Kennedy is an ex-addict who founded the Addiction Survival Course in Coventry, West Midlands, UK. The Addiction Survival Course provides support and counselling for people who have a desire to quit Cocaine and whom do not wish to spend a lifetime ‘in recovery.’ Paul provides house call support, therapy sessions, volunteer services and a help line clinic to the West Midlands area and global phone consultations when he isn’t writing his help guide for addicts who wish to be set free from the grips of addiction…. 

www.addictionsurvivalcourse.co.uk

Family – Trauma, violence, abuse, denial… the makings of an addict… Concluded.

Family – Trauma, violence, abuse, denial… the makings of an addict.

One child grows up to be
Somebody that just loves to learn
And another child grows up to be
Somebody you’d just love to burn
Mom loves the both of them
You see, it’s in the blood
Both kids are good to mom
Blood’s thicker than mud

Family Affair – Sly & The Family Stone

In previous articles I’ve observed, concluded and asserted the role of trauma in addiction…

Experts with far more time served in observation have concluded the connection for long enough now.

After many attempts to stop searching for pain relief (quit drugs and associated lifestyle)  it was only out of good fortune that I came to the realisation myself… You see drugs are somewhat good at temporarily masking pain…

They’re also good at masking the reasons why you’re going for pain relief at all, turning your mental processes into mind soup. When you’re going in and out of pain relief whilst no one else is giving a fuck because we’re still in the stigma age of addiction acceptance as an illness. Its a bit like living in the deep South of the U.S. as a black man in the bad old days… Look how long that took to inch forward a little bit… Perhaps more like the unfortunate way some of us still address or look at disabled people. No wonder so many addicts check out… 

I’m not blaming my circumstances, my upbringing or my family for me being an ex-addict. That was my choice, but let me tell you, my loved ones, sure as shit kept me an addict.

Out of my good fortune and stupidity I was forced to face my trauma through Bonnie’s unconditional and unfailing love.

I’d be dead for sure without her.

The trauma was deep and buried, disguised within me as a problem with the drug. ‘He had drug problems,’ ‘he was a waster,’ ‘poor little addict.’

Recently I saw some daylight and after fighting a mental battle with withdrawal I finally had better days. I built on my progress and then failed again. I just couldn’t work out why.

I had become a door mat for many members of my extended family, I instantly recognised in Bonnie when it was also happening to her. A beautiful, serene embodiment of love and care… a heart so full. I saw the abuse of her; like Cinderella being picked on by two jealous ugly Sisters and a Mother who didn’t know how to love her for some reason long forgotten.

So If I could see it in her why couldn’t I wake up to my trauma and its causes?

I’m not so fussed about that now as I am just happy to be cleaned up free from a need for pain relief as I say goodbye for good to all the abusers and abuse deniers in my extended family circle.

If not the direct cause they sure as hell were great enablers of personal pain. I think because of all I witnessed as a child and seeing them do not much to help then I became conditioned to garner they’re acceptance of me, to offer me salvation from my pain then that facilitated my acceptance of their behavior in later times. I do my Uncle and Auntie a disservice here… They rescued me from a violent, traumatic home-life and gave me shelter in London at 16… I will always be grateful to them for this.

The pain of trauma was deep rooted. My healer of fabulous talent had under Bonnie’s direction been teaching me calm and mindfulness through meditation, deep relaxation and also heart tapping. This had shown good results and indeed got me to the next point of progress, one day however I went to see her in bits.

I wasn’t able to focus on my daily structured disciplines we had worked out together. I had just buried my Father and was faced with the usual family ignorance, abuse, lies and denials. It was an ordeal where people where lying to my face about the Father I adored and who had been so important to me. They were pissing on his character, a good friend of mine and Dad’s had once remarked ‘he was the only Gentlemen I have encountered on the Island’ that they lived. He was a great man and though we fell out as Dad’s and Son’s do, we came back to each other with an unbreakable bond. These spineless ‘relatives’ lied to my face and made me feel worthless and frustrated in their own search for solace for being poor relations in their dealings with him.

I thought I just needed a hit, I did. I absolutely did, the pain was unbearable. Much documented, this kind of situation when you are weak makes you feel you are going insane when people lie to you about their fantasy relationships with someone you know had been traumatised himself by their preoccupation in life to bother their asses about him. Luckily Bonnie was at hand again to fight these demons with me. Back with the healer I cried and said I couldn’t shift the pain, I lied to her about needing pain relief but she knew anyway.

We had to go the final step, many addicts don’t need to do this, don’t need to go this deep… but many do, so please consider this if you have a feeling trauma is deep rooted, someone else may tell you.. ‘it was when you were a kid.’ ‘its the past that you mask.’ ‘that dark place you cannot go…’

Find yourself a highly recommended alternative healer preferably of Eastern origin who you grow to trust with and get done as what was done to me.

I sat there and for about 30 mins focused on her making fast then slow movements of her palm as it went back, forth, up and down, side it side, I found it hard to focus but eventually we got there… I was told after to lie down and repeat many affirmations regarding where I was, how I’d come to the realisation to address my trauma and relinquish my pain relief for my own good. I confirmed the past was now dealt with and I would commit to a life in the now, a life of service to others and with that, the future would look after itself.

I woke up on her instruction from this deep relaxation and hypnotism and cried like an infant, I cried out of joy as I’d felt this demon of trauma and pain from my childhood abuse extracted from my gut, also gone was the current pain of abuse that had been going on for the last 10 years by my sibling and its denial by others. 

I forgave her, it was subconscious for her, the pain she felt, It was too much for the extended family to take on or accept when I cried out in my own ‘weakness’ for acceptance of its existence. 

This can never happen, that I know now. Its too much for them to surmount. Recently I was a fool to think someone might listen and try to understand my position. it was another affirmation to stay grounded. Bonnie was in bits, made to sob yet again by my own bloods denial of the elephant in the room.

Stay grounded and remove the problem I’ve  come to conclude. I’ll remove myself and not put my heart on the line again.

If you are stuck in addiction related pain suppression and you suspect trauma is deep, then at some point you will need to deal with it in order to walk away from your addiction. Seek help from outside your circle, I am available to offer help and assistance as always: pjk2011@gmail.com

I’m 46 and still learning but I know that I am making the right decision to say goodbye to most of my ‘family.’ They have been abusers and abuse deniers I shall not miss them.

I love you all but I can’t ever let you in again.

Paul Kennedy

Please support and share my community work..

Paul Kennedy

* Paul Kennedy is an ex-addict who founded the Addiction Survival Course in Coventry, West Midlands, UK. The Addiction Survival Course provides support and counselling for people who have a desire to quit Cocaine and whom do not wish to spend a lifetime ‘in recovery.’ Paul provides house call support, therapy sessions, volunteer services and a help line clinic to the West Midlands area and global phone consultations when he isn’t writing his help guide for addicts who wish to be set free from the grips of addiction…. 

www.addictionsurvivalcourse.co.uk

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Family – Trauma, violence, abuse, denial… the makings of an addict.

Day 14: Cocaine Exit – You’re On Your Own – The M.O. – Our Modus Operandi and My Magnum Opus

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Make me believe in you
Show me your love can be true
Do anything you want me to do
Just make me believe in you

Keepin’ filled with all your temptation
You know it leaves me with no inspiration
Another chart playin’ on me
May have a hard time succeedin’, you see

You don’t seem quite like the others
Respectin’ me and your sisters and brothers
It would be awful, awful sad
To give love and you treat me so bad

Make Me Believe In You – Curtis Mayfield and Patti Jo


Day 14… The M.O.

We’re at the end of the road… I know for a lot of you this could be the beginning of a journey on a super highway… Well done… You did it all yourselves, I’m just the big mouth with plenty to say on everything and certainly I got loads more to say on addiction and getting right…

Hopefully the future holds rewarding straight days filled with warmth and love for yourself and others, staying busy with a constant stream of contentment and accomplishment. A good diet, fitness, an open mind and happy daily slave activity that you enjoy bringing reward and comfort to your home. Take the personal development and scheduling discipline tips forwards, god only knows I have to do as I say and not as I used to do… I cannot afford to put 4 hours a day into detailed guiding and insight for others now but this blog shall stay out there in the internet ether for others to follow our lead. I’m now working 3 jobs, not as planned but out of necessity… I’m just tripping out on the new super highway myself so you’ll always have someone here you can to relate to and indeed please continue with the feedback, specific requests and requests for assistance.. pjk2011@gmail.com

I shall be taking things forward and dishing out my Magnum Opus in the form of some new thinking on addiction; science, conscious and sub, trauma management, its timeline, religion, alternative healing, recovery and being recovered… I shall recount the high times and high jinks I got up-to all over Europe and wider… The incredible drug fueled youth movement I played my part in, the love, money, friends, family, brain cells and time lost coming full circle to live a clean life when I never, ever thought I’d be the same again. The jury’s out as to whether I’m recovered or not. I’ve had arguments with those who want to keep us down as ex/-addicts and I’ve had the good fortune to connect with the thought leaders at the forefront of addiction knowledge who with me as an ally are going to slay these dinosaurs of the dark ages and expose them for what they are… Words and interpretations are pure semantics… I control my mind and my heart rules… This is the crux of the matter.

You don’t want me going round claiming to be ‘recovered’ because YOU want to keep me in a pit of recovery that feels, looks, tastes and smells just like addiction itself… Pardon me for getting excitable but fuck you because my way works, it works for others and were leaving you behind..

Its human nature for men to be competitive sorts; your men friends, your best friend, your siblings and family men…

They wanna see you do good but

That’s what it is… Westernised competitiveness… Whilst I have tried to meditate the shit out of the ego in me, it appears I can only consciously manage it down, I’m still the big, gregarious bear I ever was.. but no mistaking when I was suffering the illness of addiction I was way out of control.. I made my mistakes, I asked for forgiveness, I finally addressed my past.. If you engage me and play me down with the stigma of the past, If you put one on me, make sure, with no mistake I am back and right on top of my game. I will no longer have anyone; near, dear or otherwise make me feel an inferior citizen nor second class ex-junkie ticket because its easy for you to play that game because you don’t really like yourself nor the improvements you see in me. 

Ex-addicts please take note of the above.. This shit will happen to you on a regular basis… Like me, get a tight circle of like-minded souls around you and fly like birds of a feather, merrily gliding above at a great height away from spoilers, detractors and haters… Please though, do it with style and grace… Keep your side of the street clean. Leave them behind… 

Home at last… 🙂 


  1. For today we say no to Cocaine or your problem drug or drink.
  2. Offer gratitude for your roof, sustenance, family, work, health etc etc.
  3. Keep the previously documented discipline’s of; health, fitness, supplements, organisation, personal development, kindness and the spreading of love, keep your meditation game tight and look into tapping and alternative healing. Consider a little Buddhism in your life. Its all about you as a God and only involves you doing the right thing for others and you.
  4. Retain the guide book for future reference… You will forget to remember how to control your mind chatter for a while to come yet.. That’s why John Flaherty wrote the book…  Addiction Unplugged – How to be free.
  5. Anyone still feeling conscious or subconscious trauma pangs that you think require a hit to fix should talk to me or seek an alternative healer or counselor for a little help. You have to deal with your pain. I had mine extracted subconsciously a while ago, I couldn’t move forward till it was done… Talk to me: pjk2011@gmail.com
  6. Pay it forward… Tell others how you got clean. Refer them to me if needing help.

Goodbye for now… Reach for new heights in the new you and keep working on yourselves… Love strength and energy to you all…

Please support and share my community work..

Paul Kennedy

* Paul Kennedy is an ex-addict who founded the Addiction Survival Course in Coventry, West Midlands, UK. The Addiction Survival Course provides support and counselling for people who have a desire to quit Cocaine and whom do not wish to spend a lifetime ‘in recovery.’ Paul provides house call support, therapy sessions, volunteer services and a help line clinic to the West Midlands area and global phone consultations when he isn’t writing his help guide for addicts who wish to be set free from the grips of addiction…. 

www.addictionsurvivalcourse.co.uk

 

Day 14: Cocaine Exit – You’re On Your Own – The M.O. – Our Modus Operandi and My Magnum Opus

Day 13: Cocaine exit tips – Closed Thinking – Mind Power.

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You cant change it
Don’t try to change it
deal with it
Don’t fool yourself
look in the mirror
you find
you cant fool yourself
you got to deal with it 
What it is…
Mind Power – James Brown


Day 13…

Thirteen… Unlucky for some, unlucky for me yesterday… I knew just as soon as I started the religion and addiction debate that things would go off like a war in the Middle East.

Unfortunately for me my Achilles heal and indeed a part of my addictive traits is a need to be loved / liked / accepted. I don’t like drama and confrontation on any level. I can now look back at my childhood and understand why… So even when I get into conflict regardless of who caused it I find it hurts me more than others. Buddhist say that this is the same for all but I got a heavy imbalance yes, Buddhism says that if you throw hot rocks of anger around YOU are the one that has to ingest them at some point. I know this. Confrontation hurts and within the weaker / effected individual you can get bullied, battered and bruised through no fault of your own and feel serious emotional trauma… This can make you use, whatever your crutch is.

So here I am spreading this free self help message to all that would like to save themselves, I’ve got about 30+ social media feeds coming into this blog, I know one of them is a particularly religious bent set of recovering addicts. I tried my best to explain that ‘your way is yours,’ ‘mine is mine’ because we’re all in this together to end souls addiction hell…  

Well no that apparently is not the case… Within minutes the mission bell had been rung and I was surrounded by God fearing site admins preaching a one way message that:

  • The 12 steps of Alcoholics and Narcotics Anonymous is THE ONLY way to free yourself from addiction.
  • You should spend your time praying for a divine intervention moment to miraculously save you from your addiction!
  • You hand yourself over to a bunch of over bearing, sanctimonious sheep people that want in, into your; home, head soul and day to day activities.
  • It is not possible to recover from addiction!!! Why? Well probably so you can carry on praying, financing corruption and sticking your faith in an antiquated belief system with no proof of its claims.

Let me tell you, a chariot riding God like character is not coming riding over the hill to save your addicted ass. You’re going to have to save yourself. 

Should I find myself in need of a draconian non-solution to the recovery from addiction I know where to go. The 12 steps of NA/AA will keep you in recovery for a lifetime… read more here…

Unlike the God squad, we, the learned survivors must maintain an open minded approach in order to expedite our recovery. 


 

  1. For today we say no to Cocaine or your problem drug or drink.
  2. Offer gratitude for your roof, sustenance, family, work, health etc etc.
  3. Review the paper exercise as covered in the first days of our mission. Focus on the people we need to redress / offer apologies / explanations to, its now time to bury the past in order to leave it in its best position so we can march on. If you’re sure this new clean you is a permanent fixture then get to work and speak your truth from the heart.
  4. Stretch those legs and change your view with a little nature walk. Rain, hail, snow whatever the elements… breath it in and slow down to the pace of what is alive around you.
  5. Still enjoying the smoothies and getting a kick out of these after a nice bit of gentle exercise? Here’s 20 top recipes now you’re getting to grips with the blender… Link. continue the great steps taken in your diet, white meat, iron rich vegetables and oily fish all give you valuable nutrients and the energy reserves we need to stay busy.. Top it off with the slow release mega vitamins.
  6. Continue to rebuff any calls or invitations from situations that may cause you temptation. I know for a fact that I wouldn’t risk my clean status for a few hours of fun and thus I can go and do as I please, in fact I, personally like the test. It comes with a big physiological reward. Even so, complacency kills and Wednesday isn’t the day to be a sadist. Manage this well at whatever level of fixed you are at. Do test yourself down the line… Its the acid test pardon the pun, for understanding the truth of whether you’re ‘recovered’ or still in ‘recovery.’
  7. Try and stick with the discipline of time management as discussed in detail before… A busy mind is a happy mind… Its been well documented. Plan your work, study, personal development time, your down time and consider what you’re going to do with it… Your sobriety / clean status deserves a reward… Plan where it is you’re going get stimulated in  a new environment.
  8. They say the night time is the right time… Yeah, the right time to affirm all of the hard work we’re doing… finish reading your guide book Addiction Unplugged – How to be free.
  9. Give something back… If you feel as if you are at the end of the road with your demon, if you feel this is it for you… Consider how you can make a difference to society now that you have made a difference to yourself. I’m doing that right now. My belief system is now all about creating an exponentially growing model that benefits the science of addiction and its social fall out. It’s very rewarding; the new me try’s wherever possible to help others… What can you do? No matter how small… 
  10. Pray to yourself, you’re far from a false idol… Meditate. Twice a day, 10-15 mins. Persist in the beginning, persist through days when you carry a little trauma. You didn’t learn to ride a bike or swim immediately.. Take your time… During times of deep trauma still persist and use the ‘tapping’ practice to go deeper. Remember…. once ready and in position start and complete your meditation routine by gently tapping your heart area with your 3 fore fingers and say the following or similar… ‘I truly, completely love and respect myself… I am my truth.. I am making progress and I am grateful for that… I accept days of challenge and am learning how to deal with them… thank you for the learning…’  This works… Don’t knock it till you’ve tried it 🙂

 

Big Wednesday Blessings To You All…

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Paul Kennedy

* Paul Kennedy is an ex-addict who founded the Addiction Survival Course in Coventry, West Midlands, UK. The Addiction Survival Course provides support and counselling for people who have a desire to quit Cocaine and whom do not wish to spend a lifetime ‘in recovery.’ Paul provides house call support, therapy sessions, volunteer services and a help line clinic to the West Midlands area and global phone consultations when he isn’t writing his help guide for addicts who wish to be set free from the grips of addiction…. 

www.addictionsurvivalcourse.co.uk

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Day 13: Cocaine exit tips – Closed Thinking – Mind Power.

Day 12: Cocaine exit tips – Trauma = Abuse not use – and the doomed God complex in addiction…

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Don’t worry if you missed first few days, you can catch up by clicking through the recent posts link in the top right hand corner of this page.

Feeling unknown
And you’re all alone
Flesh and bone
By the telephone
Lift up the receiver
I’ll make you a believer

Take second best
Put me to the test
Things on your chest
You need to confess
I will deliver
You know I’m a forgiver

Reach out and touch faith

Personal Jesus – Depeche Mode


Day 12 almost recovered mortals…

Die-hard Depeche Mode fans were split into three groups with regards to the interpretation of this song. The ones that believe it has something to do with religion. Those who think it’s about finding a lover and those that believe it was based on drug abuse. I’ll go with all 3.. for sure Martin Gore and Dave Gahan sure knew their ‘shit’ lucky to be alive, not sure about any religious bent within the band my good friend affectionately known as Wonder Woman would know… She is a functioning DM addict 😉 Interestingly ‘depeche’ gets a spell check alert suggesting ‘dependance’ fuck me am I getting good at the segue business.

Dependence on drugs, dependence on love, dependence on God… Shall we dance around this??? I am getting exposed to different approaches to addiction help from professionals and self help groups. I know myself and many others are working to push along addiction thinking rapidly, were on the leading edge us ex-addicts with our experience, knowledge compassion and a desire to fix others… Yes its cathartic too. But heavens above, in the name of Jesus Christ will some of you please stop asking a ‘higher entity’ for help / prayers and divine intervention??? Please, don’t get the hump with me, I’m just a soldier and religion has enough wars.. You as an addict, ex-addicts, addict sponsor, addict helper… Will you put down the Our Fathers and Hail Mary’s and do stuff… Take actions… follow my lead… God knows will you follow your own heart and take positive steps, will you stay busy, will you get fit? will you change your view? will you pray to yourself in meditation? WILL YOU ADDRESS THE TRAUMA? Will you then leave it and stay in the now? Will you educate yourself on the workings of the mind? Will you go easy on yourself? Will you leave the stigma behind and tel stigmatisers to go take a jump… Will you do this… Will you then get recovered?

Yes my child… You shall be recovered, then know your truth and your truth shall set you free. (no prayers needed.) 

OK then still pray if you want but consider the advise from one who knows.

Trauma as mentioned in the above God section, I believe, childhood trauma is a major factor in 90% of addiction cases. Most of the other 10% is down to  adult life trauma if you’re not fortunate (oxy) to have suffered it as a child and learned how to deal with it. Of course some of us just don’t make it and were locked in as emotional train wrecks… I’ve tasted all of these elements. Like Beyonce though I’m a survivor. My heart melts for the poor souls who’s trauma runs too deep. May God help them.

I set to fix myself then others from addiction… Addictions just an unwanted by product of trauma… Unless you got really good shit and not much of a life or peripheral vision.. then indeed you can be one of the 1 or 2% perhaps that make up the number. These few as my American friends say need to ‘get a life.’

Stop waiting for God / Godot / Other mystery entity and do things to fix the addict.. Pleaseeee…


  1. For today’s tips click back over the previous two weeks by clicking the link in the top right hand corner, you know what to do.
  2. Deal with your trauma, face it yourself, understand it can’t ultimately be changed only fixed for the now,  it can be learned from. Have  a look at it. Issue your apologies if you were the instigator, try to understand why you were lost and did what you did. If as I, suffered trauma at the hands of others then consider your forgiveness of them. I personally can’t forgive a few individuals but I sure as hell am not going to let them steal another day of my calm, contentedness and indeed my truth. That’s the prize, thats the value, your peace of mind now and a brighter outlook. I don’t forgive them but I don’t smite or spite them… They don’t matter any more.

Big Love to you all… race, faith, religion creed, tribe, colour… I dig you all… except racists, bigots and slavers… I don’t like you…

Please support and share my community work..

Paul Kennedy

* Paul Kennedy is an ex-addict who founded the Addiction Survival Course in Coventry, West Midlands, UK. The Addiction Survival Course provides support and counselling for people who have a desire to quit Cocaine and whom do not wish to spend a lifetime ‘in recovery.’ Paul provides house call support, therapy sessions, volunteer services and a help line clinic to the West Midlands area and global phone consultations when he isn’t writing his help guide for addicts who wish to be set free from the grips of addiction…. 

www.addictionsurvivalcourse.co.uk

Day 12: Cocaine exit tips – Trauma = Abuse not use – and the doomed God complex in addiction…

Day 11: Cocaine Exit – The Day The Music Died… again…

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Don’t worry if you missed first few days, you can catch up by clicking through the recent posts link in the top right hand corner of this page.

I tried to find her
‘Cause I can’t resist her
(I tried to find her)
I never knew just how much I missed her
Sorrow

Sorrow – David Bowie


Day 11 cleaned up warriors…

So..  David Bowie exited stage left today. A loss to any muso… anyone with ears for that matter. Everyone knows his tunes and has a fave. I like them all bur in particular his ‘Berlin’ period. He composed the album ‘Low’ during this time and a couple of others. He sort sanctuary in Berlin after life in the L.A. fast lane left him strung out and nearly broke. Sound and Vision from Low is probably my top Bowie tune… When coming up on a buzz Its energy suited the mood… Invariably it wouldn’t be long before that feeling wore off and it would be time to play more melancholy tunes of which ‘Sorrow’ would always be a good fit. Coming down or not being able to score or scoring shit gear resonates with the words I tried to find her cause I can’t resist her, I tried to find her I never knew just how much I missed her, sorrow..’ 

Drugs are often referred to as she in particular Heroin, in my experience they don’t come with no feminine grace as you might find in a motor car or boat affectionately known as ‘she..’ The only thing synonymous is the breakdown of a car or the sinking feeling of a cursed sea vessel.

When in Berlin not long ago, I was at the end of my drug journey… That said I did convince some local beauty queens to score for me… Top notch gear as it turned out.. anyway… whilst digging the incredibly contrasting East and West ends of the City It occurred to me I was in Bowie’s old bohemian stomping ground.. I could see the appeal of a place that he later recounted as being somewhere a washed up English rock star could lose himself in  without being hustled or hassled.

It worked similarly for me; the man in the street in need of a new direction… Jamaica had the same effect…

If you wanna seal the deal on this new you business and you can afford to do it then get yourself together and get a change of view… One of the major factors behind rehab success is the simple fact that you’re not in your drug den, with your drug pals… in a fucking drug use inspiring place.

Day 11…

  1. As suggested. By the time we’re done in 3 days you may have saved some cash and brain cells… bonus. Set aside a few more pennies and plan a change of scenery. Get a budget cheap seat and roll into; Berlin, Lisbon, Vienna, The Dam, Barcelona, Peak District, New Orleans, you get the picture… Take you’re fresh head and rediscovered pastime interest with you and get some… I guarantee you a quantum leap forward as you zap legacy memories and thoughts. Plan a trip.
  2. Today we say no to Cocaine or your problem drug or drink…
  3. Offer gratitude for the base level things we take for granted every day. In the Western world we’ve taken things for granted for far too long, it enables junkie activity. That place where you live, the food and drink: the water you have that others don’t, the people in your life, especially the ones who got your back.
  4. Meditate upon rising and when winding down from your work or studying. Millions around the globe are benefiting from the natural, free and easy total solution to; stress management, sleep deprivation, ego management, mindfulness facilitation and find their lives to be calm as mediators… So easy to learn and benefit from… Some see this activity as a religious crack pot routine. Religions offers me very little and religion for what its worth with its many clashes in belief and activities the only one constant I can think of is meditation… Not praying to a deity meditating to a higher you; Buddhists, Hindu’s, Sikhs, Rastafarian’s, the odd ex-Catholic! for sure… There has to be something in this doesn’t there???
  5. Its never too late to get a healthy routine… Diet, walking, gym, yoga, supplements, caffeine and nicotine substitutes… If you’ve been following me all the way through you should have your game in check. Your mind requires  your body in good working order. The battles almost won, keep up the good work.
  6. Progress feedback…. If you haven’t already done so and you’ve come this far and are still 100% committed, providing you’re confident is trustworthy then why not get some affirmation on the process? It helps kick any lingering ideas of use into touch.Trust me, do not get any romantic notions for a hit.., It ain’t worth it. Carry on contacting me at pjk2011@gmail.com for feedback and specifics, no problem. 
  7. Carry on with ending your love affair with gadgets, phones and social media… Set a disciplined on/off routine. Time stealers, robbing you of more rewarding pursuits. I’m well on the case with this.
  8. Continue to live a busy existence in the now… Review and deal with your past… Tomorrow if its granted is taken care of within the new you.
  9. Play Bowie’s greatest hits and salute a man who wrecked himself sideways and came back to offer something to the world.
  10. There ain’t no 10 but its here for the OCD/ADHD within me… The later interestingly I see as a gift. Mind control… flip the script followers.

Energy and Endurance wishes to you all…

Please support and share my community work..

Paul Kennedy

* Paul Kennedy is an ex-addict who founded the Addiction Survival Course in Coventry, West Midlands, UK. The Addiction Survival Course provides support and counselling for people who have a desire to quit Cocaine and whom do not wish to spend a lifetime ‘in recovery.’ Paul provides house call support, therapy sessions, volunteer services and a help line clinic to the West Midlands area and global phone consultations when he isn’t writing his help guide for addicts who wish to be set free from the grips of addiction…. 

www.addictionsurvivalcourse.co.uk

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Day 11: Cocaine Exit – The Day The Music Died… again…